‘I used to be very unkind to myself’: Vidya Balan speaks about working with a healer for a few years

Vidya Balan says that she used to be too critical and judgemental of herself in the past but eventually learnt to accept and love herself after working with a healer for a few years. She says that the journey to self-acceptance takes time and it’s still a work in progress for her.

Speaking to PinkVilla, Vidya said that she has had a long journey and it’s not been the easiest. “It’s been a long journey and it is work in progress. I am not accepting of myself every single day, there are days when I get up feeling angry with myself, feel wronged about something, some old rejection shows up, god knows what is the trigger, not feeling good about your body, so I think it is never absolute. The process is never complete,” she said.

“But, I think the thing is to realize and to see in those times how far you have come and to realize that it is never too late to start working on yourself. When I say start working on yourself, I don’t mean going to the gym, or change diet, but what I mean is just be kind to yourself. I think most of us forgot that. I have been working with a healer for a few years now, and that is something I had learn. I used to be very unkind to myself, there are times when I still slip into being over critical and judgemental of myself, then I remind myself of my various strengths and then the things which bothered me, lose power over me,” she said.

Vidya, who has often talked about being body-shamed, spoke in an interview with Hindustan Times, “The acceptance of self happened around 2008-2009. I realized I had to accept that one person in the mirror, everyone else cannot be depended upon and their expectations will keep on changing.”

Vidya will be soon seen in Shakuntala Devi, a biopic based on the late maths genius. The film will be premiered on Amazon Prime on July 31^st. Talking about the same, she said, “I didn’t know much about her other than the fact that she was known as the human computer world over. But then Anu Menon (director) started sharing details with me and I realized she was such an interesting person. She had a zest for life and loved to cook, eat, dress up, dance and a wicked sense of humour. None of these I would associate with a human computer. She loved like she lived life, with full josh.”